I don't like the fall...

I always hate the chill of November...

I hate the feeling I am feeling now...after 12 years, I would have let it go.
I dont think you ever really let go...

Footprints in the Sand by Leona Lewis

You walked with me
Footprints in the sand
And helped me understand where I'm going

You walked with me
When I was all alone
With so much unknown along the way

And just when I thought I'd lost my way
You gave me strength to carry on
That's when I heard you say I promise you
I'm always there

When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair
And I'll carry you when you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand

When I'm weary well I know you'll be there
Cause I can feel you when you say I promise you
I'm always there

When your heart is filled with sadness and despair
Oh, I'll carry you
When you need a friend you'll find my footprints in the sand

When your heart is full of sadness and despair
I'll carry you when you need a friend
I promise you I'm always there
When you need a friend

You'll find my footprints in the sand

Sometimes...

I feel like Im someone else...

I dont think I deserve the good things...

I dont understand the plan...

I wonder if I could be a better parent...

I wonder if one day my child will hate me for the choices made for him...

I think that my life is pretty good considering...

I think about the baby that will never be...

I would like to go back to school...

I think things are not always what they seem...

I wonder if I make a difference...

I think it doesnt really matter...does it?

Grrr

Im very frustrated right now with Facebook...

I cant update anything, post on anyone's page or post pictures.

This is very frustrating for me.

I cant even put up a message that says I cant do anything!!!

Anyway, we had a great weekend with Jeff & Tina's wedding. It was the quickest wedding I have ever been too but that was okay because it was outside and it was a bit chilly for my little black dress. It was beautiful to say the least...

On a final note...My good friend Sara finally was blessed with Baby Parker John Bleu last night...

He is a cutie!!!

Here are some pictures...1 of Alex in his tux and Baby Parker

til next time

-a

Sorry I have been neglecting the blog world...

Since we last heard from me, I was waiting on book 3 "Eclipse" in the "Twilight" series.

I am currently 659 pages into the final book "Breaking Dawn".

I cant believe its over...

I cant believe I read them all so fast. Well, really that shouldnt be a surprise because they are a very easy read. It sucks you and makes you not want to put it down.

Wow...

By tomorrow it will be over and I will go back to being Magazine girl again.

However, it wont be easy.

-a

Holding

Book 3 will be purchased Friday...

Eclipse

I dont want it to be over already but I cant wait to see what happens next.

Frustration

I finished "Twilight"
I was pretty happy with the outcome and couldnt wait to read the next one. However, I am very frustrated with "New Moon" so far.
I was crying

What has this book done to me?

If my life was a movie...this is my soundtrack.

Opening Credits?
Blackbird by The Beatles

Waking Up?
Bad Reputation by Joan Jett

1st Day of School?
ABC by the Jackson 5

Falling in Love?
Crush on you by the Jets

Fight Song?
Invincible by Pat Benetar

Breaking up?
Im gone by Kelly Clarkson

Prom?
In your eyes by Peter Gabriel

Life is just...OK?
Im alright by Kenny Loggins

Mental Breakdown?
My Immortal by Evanescence

Driving?
Wide Open Spaces by Dixie Chicks

Flashback?
Human by Human League

Getting back together?
Only you by Yaz

Wedding?
Here by Rascal Flatts

Birth of a child?
Accidentally in Love by Counting Crows

Final Battle?
Another one bites the dust by Queen

Death Scene?
This used to be my playground by Madonna

Funeral song?
A little fall of rain from Les Miz

End Credits?
Beautiful by Dee Carstensen