Blame Canada?!?!

Do not be confused or offended by the title of my blog...

I am merely referencing my addiction to certain TV shows that are from Canada.
My newest one is a cartoon that is on my child's favorite channel, Cartoon Network. Anyway, this show is called 6 teen. Its about kids hanging out at the mall. Its completely silly and very teenish but its very funny and I cant help but watch it.
Actually Im sure a lot of people can relate to this show if you watch it...who hasnt had a mall job or hung out with your friends at the food court? Im pretty sure everyone has at some point...having said that, the characters are of course 16 and this is what they do. As long as you dont read anymore into it...its great!!!
I just wonder what the allure of Canadian TV is...
This is not my first brush with Canada television. Growing up I was a total Degrassi junkie. This show was my show and I didnt even realize until I was probably 16 that it was even Canadian. To me this show was my soap opera...my Mom had her shows so why shouldnt I have mine? I was very sad when Degrassi ended but lo and behold I discovered as an adult that there was now a Degrassi The Next Generation. Now characters that I loved as a child were recycled so to speak in a new format. They even used characters of old in an adult setting...I loved it all over again!!!
Hence, Canada got me all over again...
So now as I watch my new show all snuggled in my jammies...
I add a new show to the ever growing list of addictions.
Im sure they make pills for this...

If today was your last day...

So I got the new Nickelback album...

I dont really know if I like it or not yet...maybe it will grow on me...

There is this one song though.

Hence the title of my blog that really grew on me...

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
Would you call old friends you never see?
Reminisce of memories
Would you forgive your enemies?
Would you find that one you're dreamin' of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you finally fall in love
If today was your last day

I have been thinking about this today.

My question is why do these questions only come up on your last day? Shouldnt this be how we are living life everyday because, lets be honest, do you really know when your last day is?
Im going to try and be better about things...
What about you?

Cold ramblings

Why does it have to be so cold? A few short weeks ago it was a balmy 70 degrees...
Now its like 20...

Just needed to get that off my chest.

Tonight I am alone. Just me. The hubby is working at the 2nd job. Alex staying at Grammy's. I have been just tinkering on the computer since I dont still feel the greatest. I want to be together for tomorrow night. I only have been waiting for a month for "TWILIGHT". There are about 8 of us going and we are going to have a blast. That will probably be the highlight of my weekend...besides going to the grocery store...LOL

Christmas is upon us...which means XM has a 24 hour music channel devoted to Christmas Music. This makes me very happy. When I got in the car at lunch time "All I want for Christmas is you" was on. That song always make me smile and think of my "stalkee". He always says that song is all about him anyway...

I have been wanting to write more lately...
I feel it in my head but when I try to put it on paper, I feel blocked...
My heart feels it too. I miss it.
Perhaps it will come...

til next time...
-a

I don't like the fall...

I always hate the chill of November...

I hate the feeling I am feeling now...after 12 years, I would have let it go.
I dont think you ever really let go...

Footprints in the Sand by Leona Lewis

You walked with me
Footprints in the sand
And helped me understand where I'm going

You walked with me
When I was all alone
With so much unknown along the way

And just when I thought I'd lost my way
You gave me strength to carry on
That's when I heard you say I promise you
I'm always there

When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair
And I'll carry you when you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand

When I'm weary well I know you'll be there
Cause I can feel you when you say I promise you
I'm always there

When your heart is filled with sadness and despair
Oh, I'll carry you
When you need a friend you'll find my footprints in the sand

When your heart is full of sadness and despair
I'll carry you when you need a friend
I promise you I'm always there
When you need a friend

You'll find my footprints in the sand

Sometimes...

I feel like Im someone else...

I dont think I deserve the good things...

I dont understand the plan...

I wonder if I could be a better parent...

I wonder if one day my child will hate me for the choices made for him...

I think that my life is pretty good considering...

I think about the baby that will never be...

I would like to go back to school...

I think things are not always what they seem...

I wonder if I make a difference...

I think it doesnt really matter...does it?

Grrr

Im very frustrated right now with Facebook...

I cant update anything, post on anyone's page or post pictures.

This is very frustrating for me.

I cant even put up a message that says I cant do anything!!!

Anyway, we had a great weekend with Jeff & Tina's wedding. It was the quickest wedding I have ever been too but that was okay because it was outside and it was a bit chilly for my little black dress. It was beautiful to say the least...

On a final note...My good friend Sara finally was blessed with Baby Parker John Bleu last night...

He is a cutie!!!

Here are some pictures...1 of Alex in his tux and Baby Parker

til next time

-a

Sorry I have been neglecting the blog world...

Since we last heard from me, I was waiting on book 3 "Eclipse" in the "Twilight" series.

I am currently 659 pages into the final book "Breaking Dawn".

I cant believe its over...

I cant believe I read them all so fast. Well, really that shouldnt be a surprise because they are a very easy read. It sucks you and makes you not want to put it down.

Wow...

By tomorrow it will be over and I will go back to being Magazine girl again.

However, it wont be easy.

-a

Holding

Book 3 will be purchased Friday...

Eclipse

I dont want it to be over already but I cant wait to see what happens next.

Frustration

I finished "Twilight"
I was pretty happy with the outcome and couldnt wait to read the next one. However, I am very frustrated with "New Moon" so far.
I was crying

What has this book done to me?

If my life was a movie...this is my soundtrack.

Opening Credits?
Blackbird by The Beatles

Waking Up?
Bad Reputation by Joan Jett

1st Day of School?
ABC by the Jackson 5

Falling in Love?
Crush on you by the Jets

Fight Song?
Invincible by Pat Benetar

Breaking up?
Im gone by Kelly Clarkson

Prom?
In your eyes by Peter Gabriel

Life is just...OK?
Im alright by Kenny Loggins

Mental Breakdown?
My Immortal by Evanescence

Driving?
Wide Open Spaces by Dixie Chicks

Flashback?
Human by Human League

Getting back together?
Only you by Yaz

Wedding?
Here by Rascal Flatts

Birth of a child?
Accidentally in Love by Counting Crows

Final Battle?
Another one bites the dust by Queen

Death Scene?
This used to be my playground by Madonna

Funeral song?
A little fall of rain from Les Miz

End Credits?
Beautiful by Dee Carstensen

2 Steps Behind

Anyone who knows me knows that I am a magazine freak...

For whatever reason books have never really held my attention. I need variety and entertainment value. Books usually dont do that for me. Well, maybe short stories...or the books that I read Alex. It just something that I have become used to.

Until now...

I am in love with this book called "Twilight". Now I know its a few years old and probably everyone but me has read it but I dont care. Im reading it now. I kinda did it on a dare from my husband who said I might just like it if I tried it (however he couldnt convince me on meatloaf...LOL) so I bought the first book. Its crazy how I got sucked in. While I am about half way through (I would be done by now I think but a headache for the last 3 days thanks to a sinus infection put a damper on that...not to mention football on Sunday)I cant wait to get to the next time I can read it.

There are 3 more books and then it will be done but there is a movie out Dec 12 and having seen the trailers...I cant wait!!!

til next time
-a

Minor irritations

Im back...
I have to put one little irritation out here that has been bugging me since Sunday...
The Emmy's
As a big fan of award shows, I look forward to each and every one. I love everything a good award show offers from the preshows (who are you wearing?, etc), the hosts (jon stewart does an awesome job for the Oscars) and finally the winners (who can forget Cuba Gooding Jr winning his Oscar for Jerry Mcquire?). This is something that I look forward to. I mark them on my calendar and make sure that I am home. To me there is no award show to little to keep me away...
This Sunday became my exception. The preshow on E! was fine. I enjoyed Ryan Seacrest and Guliana talking to the stars but I really could have done with out the breakaways to Jay Manual and Kristin Dos Santo who were putting in their 2 cents. Im not sure if it was a time fill or what but it was boring and pointless to me.
Then the show started...
I have never been so disappointed in an award show ever. There were 5 hosts, which while unneccssary, seemed to have promise. However, from the start, it was like a bad train wreck. A lot of it seemed unrehearsed and not relevent. It should have been a good show because it was the 60th anniversary of the Emmy's. While the premise of the history was valid it was wasted by stupid one liners and useless crap. I dont think the stars knew what to do with it either.
Since the Emmy's are usually the 1st of the season, I hope that this isnt a segway into what is coming up. Otherwise, there will be one disappointed girl on their hands.
til next time...
-a

I...

Tag your it...I got this from Becky's blog:

If you are reading this....consider yourself TAGGED!!!

I am: a mother
I think: I need to figure out what I want
I know: that I wouldnt be where I am today without the rough road I have traveled
I want: to go back to school
I wish: my Mom was here to see Alex
I hate: gossip
I miss: the way things used to be
I fear: not being the best parent
I feel: loved
I hear: Alex's cartoons
I smell: the air
I crave: chicken & pasta for dinner
I regret: nothing, cant learn if you have regrets
I love: EVERYONE!!!!
I ache: for the baby I will never have
I care: more than I should sometimes
I always: kiss Alex's nose
I am not: perfect
I believe: God has a plan for me
I sing: Always
I write: to rid myself of frustration
I win: at trivia games
I lose: at video games
I never: want to be the bad parent
I confuse: to easily sometimes
I can usually be found: at home or work
I am scared: something happening to Alex
I need: to put laundry away
I am happy about: the life that I am living because its mine to live
I hope: make all the rest of my dreams come true

For my first trick...

So I am starting a new blog...

Im not sure where this one will be taking me but I guess we will see . I may not blog often but I will try to make an effort.

Where to begin?

Well, first let me just say I am very frustrated with the Fall 08 television schedule. When did Tuesday become the new must see TV night? I only watch a few shows...okay so I watch more than a few, however, 5 of the shows that I really watch are now on Tuesday night.
House, NCIS, The Biggest Loser, Dancing with the Stars results & 90210. The worse part is they are all on the same time.
While I am on the subject...
The new 90210. Im not sure what I feel about it yet but I feel compelled to keep watching. I do like the mix of old characters with the new (Kelly is the guidence counselor, Brenda the drama director). I think though that its trying to be Gossip Girl but not as naughty. I think if they can get more guest shots with old characters it might hold some water. At least for me anyway...
I was pleased though with the reveal that Dylan is the father of Kelly's son...I didnt think that Brandon would really not be with her if they had a child together.

Next...
In other news, Alex, my wonderful almost 5 year old, is going to preschool. Its been almost a month but he seems to love it. We decided to send him not for smarts but to get the hang of going to school and to realize that he isnt always the center of attention. He got a few warnings the first time but since then he hasnt had any trouble. Im very hopeful that things will continue to go well so when its time for kindergarten it will be smooth sailing.
Jason and I just celebrated 5 months of being married. Its been going pretty good...
Still takes some getting used to the name change, sometimes I forget. However, that is getting few and far between.
We have quite the busy October upon us...Birthday parties, a wedding and Halloween. Alex decided to be Buzz Lightyear this year. Thank goodness for Ebay. I still need to find him a hat for his costume but I might have that figured out more than I think.

So I think I have rambled on enough...
until next time.